The urgency of it not only besieged me; its intensity also took me by surprise. I wanted to let a loud scream out, to release the pressure, but it jammed midway along my throat. It was something that I needed to do, one thing I eagerly wanted to be, something that I had eagerly waited for; and it was time, a ‘now or never’. I could no longer continue to live the same way. In short,  I needed a break, if life was…